The Edmond Express

The day you realize your biggest mistake is losing your biggest blessing is the day you begin to die. Emotional Suicide is far worse than physical suicide. Emotional Suicide is a sickness that has no cure but time. That time is not measured by a manmade tool, but rather a God made free will to feel. That free will to think and to humble yourself to recognize love as love is hurts because you have to submit yourself to truth. Self truth. The difficult thing about truth is, it is the essence of humility and forces one to render full judgement of one's own thoughts and actions. It makes you answer the question of why. Damn, WHY is one word, three letters, but is infinitely defined with no true understanding in thought, but rather in truth. Let's talk about WHY. Why is what. What is unsaid, but acted upon. How do we act upon what we didn't say? How did we not say and act? What we act upon without explanation is our downfall. We must not yield to our own understanding of what ...

So we had another senseless killing 10 minutes from my house in Columbia, Md. People die everyday, they do. Establish a norm of prayer and truth. Know yourself and those that you deal with. We can't prevent death, but we CAN prepare ourselves to know that our day is coming.

A Motherfucker like me don't give a fuck about what you feel. A Motherfucker like me could give a fuck about how your day was. A Motherfucker like me could give a fuck about what you're dealing with. A Motherfucker like me could give a fuck about any fucking thing about ya. A Motherfucker like me can do what ever the fuck he wants. A Motherfucker like me can say what ever the fuck he wants. A Motherfucker like me don't really exist. A Motherfucker LIKE me is only LIKE me, so therefore, FUCK EM/HER. So to YOU, I really don't give a fuck what you think about this post, I really don't. But, a Motherfucker like me might feel some type of way about your feelings. I'M A SELFISH MOTHERFUCKER AND WILL NOT GIVE ANY FUCKS ABOUT A DAMN THING THAT YOU ARE CONCERNED ABOUT. YEP

One day I thought about letting it all go. Letting the air and the wind beneath my wings become irrelevant. Letting the chirping from the birds and the buzzing of the bees become meaningless. I thought of letting the savage beast go unsoothed and grow patient by nature. I thought of letting the apple of a day theory become pointless. I thought of letting the sunlight be either below me or an unseen premise of life and time. I thought of the pursuit of endless rest. I thought of letting it all go. Yes, even the strongest grow weak and tired and ready to go breathless in an attempt to escape. But what to? To a place never seen? To a place never felt? To a place never heard? To a place never tasted? But I realized we are not built to let it go, but rather to grow and become better than the day before. So, as I grow and soothe this savaged beast, I will keep it all.

I posted today on another social media site regarding the most recent abortion statistics. Many questions were asked and alot of emotions were expressed regarding the reason for the post. Several thought the mere fact of just posting it and requiring parties to be responsible enough to understand that abortion is not a free option was being rather judgemental. I posted it to get people thinking, to get people to stop making excuses, to get people to actually choose morally over everything else. Yes, abortions do have a place medically for circumstances that are detrimental to life, but not for the mere convenience of not wanting to be pregnant. Yes, it is a woman's body, but they and no man has the moral choice to decide if and when a child lives. What did we do before we could abort children? We took responsibility for our actions and raised our children. We took responsibility for our actions and at some point, thought about ways to be responsible enough to not be as sexually ...

We choose the attitudes we want others to see. We are not victims to gender, regions, signs, religions, etc., but rather a reflection of our experiences. When one chooses to use the statement, "Well, I'm from.....,"it would naturally make you wonder why the best from where they are from isn't being shown. Why must people align with the most negative aspects of their experiences and or their upbringing to justify their manner of behavior? Something is wrong with the acceptance of certain behaviors and or the tolerance of certain behaviors just because. When one chooses to be an outright unsavory person, it is a choice they choose to make because they have an internal issue that needs redirecting. We are humans and we require human correction from time to time. That takes us not accepting or tolerating every single aspect of a person's attitude, character, being, but rather finding a commonplace to adjust their issue. One must not stoop to a level of negativity to c...

Do we search for what we need for instant happiness or do we search for what sustains our ability to enjoy what is our source of dependency? If happiness is relative to our current situation, is our destiny just a faithless determination of thought because happiness drives our every thought? What is our purpose? What is our reason for being? What are we here to accomplish? We are not here to be comfortable, but rather grow through the discomfort of life. What is life? It is not the sheer point of just existing. To just exist is to be complacent with thought; no emotion, no pain, no suffering, no irregularity, no unhappiness. So what are we searching for? This may cause us to think, but shouldn't we rather feel? To truly feel with explanation is not a feeling at all, but rather an explained thought. To truly feel is life. To truly feel will lead to a result of pleasure, a non-complacent comfort. One will wonder why is it so that we can't think, but rather feel and become confuse...